Originally written a year ago, I’m not quite sure why it’s taken me a whole year to post but better late than never right?
I’ve been travelling for 3 months now and for the past 3 months, it’s been the first time in, well what seems like forever that I’ve been 100% single.
What do I mean by ‘100% single’? My hotline doesn’t bling, I’m not ‘entertaining’, ‘talking to’, or ‘dating’, anyone. There’s no boo, bae, babe or crush.
Why I’d Rather Be Alone Than Be With Someone Who Doesn’t Deserve Me?
I’ve realised that I no longer want to waste my time even entertaining someone I already know doesn’t deserve me.
No, I don’t think I’m perfect or some kind of prized possession, but I do know my worth and until someone takes the time to get to know me, the REAL me (not just thirst trap Riri), I’m good just getting to know myself.
Sexual tension and attraction is all good – and definitely needed, but if that’s all that you want me for, where does that leave the rest of me?
I refuse to dumb myself down/stunt my growth/waste valuable time, all because ‘settling down’ is what I’m ‘supposed’ to be doing now.
I’m not a fan of jumping into things quickly, there’s so much for someone to learn about me and for me to also learn about them and I’m all for taking the time to REALLY get to know someone.
Know Yourself, Your Heart, Your Love, Your Intensions
I’m the type of person who wants to know you so well that if someone tells me something about you, I either already know or know if it’s likely to be true or not, and don’t have to doubt you over something that someone said. I’m not naive to the fact that you can never truly know if someone is being real with you or not, I can only trust you in that moment and hope that you’ve not been playing me.
I know who I am, what I stand for, what I’m worth, and it’s not being the girl who sits around waiting for you to decide if she deserves a place in your life or the girl who puts up with endless disrespect, let down or poor communication.
When You Know Better, You Do Better
I never intended to be THAT GIRL and sometimes I feel like we just slip into THAT GIRL, but I feel like I’ve dealt with enough of those guys and I’ve had enough time to reevaluate and grow, to not make that mistake again.
I KNOW that I deserve more and I also know the kind of love that I crave, and that’s why I’d rather be alone than waste my time on men boys who don’t deserve me.